Temptation after temptation. I had so many people asking me what the temptation was. Isn't it a temptation to ask me in the first place. Hehe. For the past few days, I've been doing loads and loads of thinking. Just ask Dong Yue, Kelvin, Chuen Kiat, or the people I've chatted with. Haha. From dawn to dusk... Contemplating the game... The same end, but different track? Or will I have started off on a path that will lead me to a different destination. Is the sacrifice worth it, or is it in truth not a sacrifice at all. Whatever... I'm done with it. No matter what happens from now, the die has been cast. Announcing my intentions spur action. :D

First things first- I'm gonna get back to my old ways of learning new stuff, then applying them. Living on clockwork has gotten damn boring. Some people would say my life is eventful, but after having gone for so many things, it begins to get rather repetitive. Everyday, I have to ask myself what event is it that I have after school. Then I go for it. Then I go home. Do my work, till I'm exhausted. Sleep. The cycle repeats... I long for the seminars, meeting new people, learning more and more stuff. Reminded once more that I don't have to be a specialist. Thank god for the warning. Was going to make the same mistake I did before... And I've also decided that it doesn't matter whether I'm the star player, as long as those who want to be are given the chance to.

No.1 Action- Suspend CCA Activities (Except for SIFE mainly)

I know... There are many arguments and all, but the one thing I need now is time. Loads of it. To plan. To research. To learn. To find. And most importantly, to feel. I'm so settled into what I do, the passion is like a candle flame now. It keeps on burning, but when will it ever ignite a bonfire. To truly find myself again, I need to reflect. To become who I am going to be, I need to think about how to get there. And this time, I believe I have the right tools.

No.2 Action- Announce that I am not going for leadership positions (except for SIFE also.. LOL)

Some people seem to think that I worked so hard just so I can secure leadership positions. To those people- UR DEAD WRONG. I believe that the path through cca activities could help me learn, so I placed in effort for it. What is another leadership position 20 years in the future? It is the skills, the contacts, the reputation, and the actions that really matter. So in case any of them think I'm doing ir for leadership positions... Feel free to go for them. You won't see me competing with you.

No.3 Action- Look for competitions

My focus will be on competitions next year. I only know of a few till now, so to increase awareness and exposure, time to go searching about for them! Also, learn how to prepare for them, and get to building a team for it. I not only intend to win, I intend to bring things to a scale I've never played with before. If people believe in me with the results from my so-divided attention, imagine what I can accomplish if I was FOCUSED...

No.4 Action- Clear my projects. And study.

I have a good chance for the gold medalist. Might as well go for it. Instead of just playing about, it's time to get really serious. Starting from now. OCOM, CATS, CIP, CATS... And revise every single day. Yup, every single day. And it will be so much more than just school stuff...

No.5 Action- Read. Hear. Do. Change. Until It Works.

No point elaborating on this. Those who know only know as much as they should. Those who don't know can guess. Actually, its pretty much just a reminder to myself... To read my books, and listen to my audios. And to do what they suggest. And change the strategy until I get the result. Hahaha... I'm going insane.


Kinda short post for me, but I don't have time. :D

Remembering what life is.....
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