1st of Jan. Start of something new. And as I have said over and over again, the Law of Attraction is not merely a law, it is a way of life. Unfinished business will be resolved before the New Year begins... and once again, my intuition has proven me correct. What is it like to win the battle but lose the war? So what if my hunch was correct? :D Intuition and reality are 2 different things afterall... even if things occured the same in reality as my intuition had it. Oh well, wish I can put my intuition to better use!!

So am I sad? Would obviously be a lie if I said I wasn't, and I am done with concealing myself. But having been prepared for it softens it bah. And the cold, hard realisation that there would have been no other course. Don't even bother to tell me things could have been different for 3 good reasons- 1. What is past is past, 2. I have too many commitments to too many people to break them, 3. My path has been set long ago. I've only this one life to live...

And in my own way, I am glad. Be ready to behold once again, the indomitable josh who will smash apart challenges like they are... tofu, since I seriously dun like the smell of too much butter. Haha. What a life... what a life... If anything, I should blame myself for having been too narrow-minded, all those years back, when I crafted my vision. So many aspects of life were untouched when I did it, because I had believed in total focus. And had it not been for a series of events in October, I would probably have been... as foolish as ever. And by the way, foolish has nothing to do with intelligence. Lol. Thanks for the lesson which has highlighted my failings.

As for what my tenth goal is, it is a project which I have failed before, and which I fear might fail again. So its not out there. Jason, I think you got the wrong idea about what the goal is.. so I'm posting this paragraph. Lol. It was one of my failed goals from 2006.

And what I truly feel at this moment... Something that transcends what I do I suppose. If I've never believed that my destiny is in my own hands, then I might be tempted to just let go with the winds of fate. What I'm feeling right now is a lot of "Ifs" and "Whys", mostly directed at myself. Instead of the usual "Hows". But it's on the way. I need to play games, sharpen my mind.

Will update later. After I start on my programme. Which incidentally is my tenth goal. Since most of you probably don't comprehend it, its pointless to write down anyway. :D

Remembering what life is.....
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