Monday, January 22, 2007
|1:58 AM|
"Determined and driven to excellence in all he does, Josh tends to be very competitive. He is not afraid to "go for" what he desires or wants, and is willing to put forth the effort for success. Josh is not afraid to challenge others in his quest to achieve his end goals, but he also respects position and authority and is not unnecessarily confrontational.
Neat and orderly, others usually see Josh as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. Josh likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.
A warm, outgoing person, Josh enjoys having a high level of interaction with others. He usually finds the "silver lining" in a difficult situation, and typically enjoys the thrill of trying new things. He has a gift for influencing those around him and is viewed as an instinctive communicator. Others find Josh easy to approach and enjoy his easy, open rapport.
Josh doesn't care for routine and will often actively try to change monotonous situations. He tends to march to the beat of his own drum, and prefers to do things on his own so he can work at his own pace. Josh is sometimes seen as being in a hurry to get where he is going since he tends to move quickly from one thing to the next."
Dunno how accurate this is, got this from a test result i took. Neat and orderly is defnitely wrong. Lol. Unless you're talking about my thoughts maybe. The rest seems ok.
Let's see what the past few days have been like... Open House was a failure to me, there was too low a turnout rate. Though the overall quality improved. I like the red, round blob thingy (Lizhen just told me its called a boxer, or is it the boxer?). We had F Cube, the bbq for the Leos. It rained. But we made do. Waited at canteen 2 for people who didnt know where to go. Chatted then. Lizhen always talk about stuff related to studies de. Scary sia. Lol. Ok, maybe its my tendency to talk with her about it? Hahaha... Dunno. Never really noticed. Hmm. Lets see, she told me to watch this show Sherilyne told me about. Went home, then chatted with a few people. The moment I off the com, I fell asleep. Then I woke up at 4pm in the afternoon, having slept a grand total of 14 hours, and saw celia's msg asking me to rest well from the previous night. Lol. Spent most of the day doing pretty much nothing but thinking.
Monday went for CIP. Didnt complete my tutorials. Cos I was playing with After Effects. Then first time I listened in MIEC lecture. Revision lor. Eh, NAPFA testing, where I got locker service AGAIN. Went to eat with dy and kelvin at market after that. Hope he does well for French. Tues was OB (its very easy to fall asleep in Mr Tan's class, and I always dun feel like answering with the right answers, just to hear him crap... wahahaha... he doesnt seem to provide the ans anyway.. so... ). Then went BSTATS lecture. Finished in 20 mins. Hit canteen 3 with hong yi and kel. Butter rice with fish. Nellie joined us. Went lib. Hijacked room. 414. Lol. Then I went 72 to meet Mrs Koh and Mr Lim. She was totally keen about me joining the cheers thing, and made contact with Miss Jasmine Lee. Went back then got chased out. Hijacked another room. Kel left for class, jack came. And he seems to be on the wrong pill. Lol. Went to see Mr Lee with Hong Yi. Wanted to talk to him about OCOM, but he was teaching BSTATS. I was stunned. But learnt. Haha. Then like kena chased out of tb26 like that. Its ok though. Lol. They werent doing tutorials anyway, which was what I went there for. Went leo clubhouse, then went for NAPFA. NO MORE LOCKER SERVICE. Did lap counting 3 times. Stanley runs quite fast. :D Met jack and dy for dinner. LJS @ Bukit Panjang. Then a lonely 1hr ride home. Oh well.
My situation seems to be revolving around all the time now. But I'm hardly worried. Come on life, throw whatever shit you want at me. Haha. It will only make me stronger and better prepared to take on the tougher challenges in life. I think dy was right. After what I went through, I think that I have grown up more as well. Grateful as ever. Oh well. But please lah, becoming more mature doesnt mean a certain someone has to mistake me for being a year 3, when I told her explicitly I was year 1. Lol. I've regained that inner calm and confidence within now. Its easy to get hurt if you don't know how to protect yourself. One tip I think would be to look at the big picture always. Been doing that a lot lately. People can go all nitty-gritty into details, but where they use multiple points to carve out a single niche, I use a single niche to carve out multiple points. Who wins? Depends. :D But I've always smashed challenges apart. Seems to be a good enough answer for me. I'm not used to losing. :S
Life is so interesting really. People change too fast. And I have no idea what to think. Maybe chris is right. Haha. Only they can truly trouble me. I'm so relaxed and confident with dealing with most matters, believing that if effort was placed in, things will have an acceptable results at the very least, if not desirable. But when it comes to matters of the heart, where josh has to feel, I'm just an idiot. How good can I be really? I wonder. Cant even make up my mind on what to do, there are so many options. Developing talents, including myself, is what I wanna do, but how? Good job thinking Josh. Have fun!
Remembering what life is.....
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