Been a blast. Hardly felt as alive before compared to the past few days. But then, I seem to wind up tired very very fast. Damn the cough. What with Leo Club and Chess, what with friends and studies... what with my own thoughts and feelings... Never thought I would have so much to do within the 1st week of school re-opening. Gods. 1 more month to the dateline I set for myself. Shouldn't be a problem. I think. Nonetheless... I hope that I recover quickly. Case in point.. stop infecting people... and get all my energy back. Half my life is coughed away. Lol.

What is a committee position? To me, it is not defined by the job scope but the duties you take up in ensuring the growth of the organisation. And to that effect, each role is not a separate entity, but one meant to synergise with the rest of the team. When I heard what Qi Rong said to Miss Leong, it was more or less expected... but to hear him say it so nonchalantly certainly surprised me. What is one more sentence on a portfolio, when one doesn't gain much out of it? And in my opinion, Chuen Kiat should be the president... he did what Jackson and I will probably never be able to do... Having nothing but Leo Club... And I believe that too many cooks spoil the broth. :D Since Jackson and I decided to opt out, I feel that the current selection is probably the best that can be achieved given the circumstances. And I'm glad that Jackson promised to improve his attitude. Thanks brother. It's never nice to leave a mess for others to clean up, especially when its your friends who have to do the cleaning up...

Studies I not gonna talk about. And whoever asked for my results... just ask. And I will tell. Though I dunno why you want to know... GPA 3.7. Bstats B+, Miec B, Ocom AD, Ob AD, Cip AD, CATS A. Happy?

And as I was thinking... to be or not to be... is that really the real question? Or is it what to be and what not to be? For our actions are shaped by our ideals... and things are not as simple as they may seem to be, divided evenly into black and white. When one takes into account more than 1 perspective, everything is a murky gray. The question is, what is the right course of action? And I dunno. I can only suggest. What I suggest has turned out to be effective quite a few times, but that does not mean that I will be right every single time. At the same time, when I make my decision, please respect the fact that I already thought through it with due consideration... If you gotta ask, then ask later. Not when there is a reason for me having done what I did, which could cancel my intention... And thats referring to more than one thing too.

Far too often these days, I have to put my mind to work constantly. Whatever spirits guide my path, please grant me reprieve once in awhile yea... I'm no robot or answer key. I just do my best. But even that is not enough. And even that does not satisfy many. And in plain honesty, I do see their point. But at the same time, if I were to do otherwise, would I be who I am, and would you have perceived me the same way you do now? Lets not deal with rhetorics... but instead deal with the rigours of life...

Remembering what life is.....
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