And should it take eternity to look for the answer, for thus I shall gladly spend my life...

Friday... It was such a nice day to sleep. I told myself no breakfast to continue sleeping. I reached school at 9.05am. The room was locked. The teacher came at 9.25am. I could have had breakfast. Stupid. Then when the lecturer said she told all tutors to go through the 06 tutorial, he went through the 07. I dunno what's up with that. Blaw, I slept. Jaded. Haha. 1h was enough to recharge. Then accompanied Faith to buy flowers. Obviously I didnt buy. Then canteen 4 for lunch. ECD, I wasn't really paying too much attention, the concepts are frigging simple. Drink milo, eat choc, thats life. Lol. And Faith thought I was upset with her? Dunno what's up with that too. Went leo clubhouse, dumped my stuff, then went with jer, daryl, and yuan jin to see Mr Alan at SDAR. As usual he poke fun at me. Haha. But my calculations were correct!! I proved it to Miss Leong. Then BA CARES. = More work. Then went NYAA the camp committee selection thingy. Then went for dinner with kel, jackson, daryl. At hooked, where tricia used to work. The fish and chips quite nice. I BEAT JACKSON!! Yay....

Sat woke up at 5+? Had to reach school at 7, no choice. Reading powerpoint all the way. Lol. Erm, Pre-U sem gonna be damn fun. But why Prima, not muvee Technologies... Hahaha... Oh well, working with the elites gonna be interesting.... Ever seen a group in which presentation slots for speakers were taken up within seconds? Though I would have things to comment on their style of project work. Still, its unfair to judge when effectiveness of either style hasn't been shown. Went back to school for leo wave. I ended up eating. Lol. Nvm lah, I helped with logistics. A bit. I slept at last. Haha. 6 hours. Much better. Oh yea, where I gonna find 2 white shirts, when I have like 0? Then again, it is tea with the president at the istana, must go buy lor...

Then Lizhen told me about her friend who suicided. Reminded me of my old friend who did the same foolish thing. Yet, I always have this feeling that when they have already passed on, we shouldnt judge at all, but remember them for the good times they brought to our lives. Once again though, it made me recall what life really is about... possibilities... Though you may quarrel, as long as you're alive, you have to chance to make it up. So many other examples, but I'm too tired to type that much now. The snuffing of a life will cause hurt to everyone who knows that person... For though we may see it on TV, how many people can truly hate someone after they've moved on... I think that some will feel regret, others will wish that they saw the person for who they truly were, instead of being bias... Then again, no matter how great the lesson, the cost is huge indeed...

I'm very sian. Haha. Once thought that if I learnt to think totally strategically, then problems would be solved much faster. That's true to some extent. But I seem to have lost the ability to express and connect... Stupid. EQ = 0. Ok lah, the last time I took it, I was like 10 points below average. But still, I wish that I wasn't that stupid afterall...

Remembering what life is.....
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